I'm just going to add some randome pictures k?

My Gosh, Havn't written a journal in ages. Lots of stuff has happened. I have lost and gained so much in the past few months. They're been a death. Not a family member or anything, but a child. Not even twoyears old, taken away for reasons unclear to me. I would say something like God didn't want him to suffer, but I'm not sure about God anymore. I loved this kid. He had so much to look forward to. I don't know anymore.

Family problems...like always. Whatever. Nothing will ever change, no matter what. My mom will always nag at me, and I will always get mad, and yell, or just simply say no, no matter what her request might be. Oh how beautiful is the Teenage mind? I am taking a course in my school, it's all about psychology, antropology and scociology. I'm no expert, but i know a little bit. We watched a movie about the Teenage mind. Did you know that we can't describe most emotions like an adult can, we may this and expression is angry when an adult might say something like irratated. After watch such a movie. I can tell if it's me whos changing or it's everyone else. Maybe it's both?

I find myself not wanting to hangout with friends, who I used to call my best. Exsample: Michelle. I still love her to death, but know I find her very immature. Like she's still stuck in Gr.7 or 8. Still runnig around, you know. I still do that in my own way. Yet I feel like I've grown up? Hmmmm. I don't know. She seems to crazy for my liking, maybe not more crazy then I am, because I get really hyper, but she's crazy in a diffrent way. One that doesn't appeal to me anymore. I feel lonley now though. Like I really have know one. I know alot of people get annoyed with me. I'm too emotional, and when I hear about that and I see it. I kinda go into a shell, and I feel like I have no one, which is emotional within it's self. I'm emo. lol.

Things change. Change can kiss my ass.

Alyson:I'm so tierd I want to go to bread

Andrew: ahaha you said bread

Alyson: yeah, I have a bed made out of bread so if i'm hungry I can Have a midnight sac *pause*

Andrew: do you know what you just said *burst out laught*

Alyson: I meant SNACK!

i hanvn't been on here for awhile, I guess i've been busy. Everything has been cool. ummmm. I got hit in the face by a snowborad today but thats about it lol. I hope everyone is doing well

Well at CSR (my Camp) I went to see a friend but while I was there my friend started ignoring me and stuff and though it's been a while scince then I still feel angry about it. I still feel hurt because I was so close to her, every day i still feel sad because i didn't do anything in order for her to treat me like this, she was almost like family to me. she knew that to and she said it was the same for her. aprently not. but it hurts. i might sound stupid and over- dramatic, but i've known this girl for three years and i thought we were so close it just...makes me really sad i just don't understand. why?